Lots o' things swirling around in my head right now, and that's a part of the reason that, after pledging to be here more often that I disappeared for a while there. Sorry.

Obviously, the daughter takes a lot of my time. She's pretty awesome, and there will be more pix of her (and her brother) showing up here sooner rather than later.

Two web destinations I've been pondering of late: Instructions to the Double: Sorry to Disappoint You and and Not to be outdone, I had myself a heart attack

The nanny blog, which has recently been the center of much comment in the blogosphere, resonates particularly with me because I'm peripatetically jobhunting right now, and the thought periodically crosses my mind that having these records of my thoughts out there for potential future employers to peruse might not be the best thing in the world for me. This is a big (but not the SOLE) reason for my silence of late).

This Blog! It has caused me some problems. The Boyfriend, HATES IT. He has been patient through this whole NYTIMES debaucle. But he has repeatedly said, somethings dont need to be in print. Maybe he was right.

I love blogging though. I have found it so so helpful this year as I prepared to head back to school. I love the blogs I read and the sense of community and the great dialogue that is going on in the blogsphere.

Yeah. Me too.

Future employers: please understand that I am a model of restraint within this site, at least as far as my employee life goes. While I may relate things that are bothering me in my life (which, since I haven't won the lottery yet, also will include my place of employmentfrom time to time) I am extremely careful to not disclose names or identifying information of any sort (unless, of course, I get okays from all involved). Additionally, I'll be trying to refrain from using my full name here, to avoid having it pop up in any Googling by potential employers.

And that's all I can do about that.

I don't really want to give up blogging - tried that, didn't work out so good for me. Guess I'm just gonna have to find the place I fit and that fits me.

The PotKettle page is notable to me because its protagonist has been a pal of mine for some time (good lord, almost 20 years!) and the news of his ailment came as a bit of a shock to me.

Its easy to forget that all of us humans are, tragically to some, decidedly but pawns of planned obsolescence walking the trail of tears on this stained and lonely granite planet.

Yeah, that's more than a bit melodramatic, but when the urge for hyperbole strikes you, the tendency is to take it all the way.

I just finished reading a marvelous book, highly recommended to you all: Ruining It for Everybody by Jim Knipfel. I read it pretty much in one sitting, chortling and frequently overwhelmed with a sense 'Hey, I've been there, I've done that!'. A particular passage that's stayed with me for the last couple of days:

A better explanation might be that with experience, I'd come to realize that most things we encounter on a daily basis, both good and bad, are tenuous and ephemeral and simply not worth getting all that worked up about. The world is full of small, unchangeable annoyances that simply aren't deserving of all the aggravation they seem to cause in so many. If they are indeed unchangeable annoyances, it's best either to deal with them or ignore them, whether it be blindness [editor's note: Knipfel has retinitis pigmentosa, a slow, degenerative eye disease] or subways that get overcrowded during rush hour. The blindness ain't going away, so it's best to learn to function around it.

And that pretty much says it all for me about all of these things, my unemployment, the fear that my blogging might get in the way of finding a new job, the realization that we all die one day, everything.

There's a paraphrased and simplified Buddhist thought that I've been passing on to everyone I know for the last couple of years:

That thing that worries you, can you change it?
Then do it!
Can you not change it?
Then why worry about it?

Less rambling next time, I hope.